ants marching

i turned 29 this year. transferred to a new place. and yet i move through life as if nothing significant happened. one day after the other...

wake up at 6am to go to work. stay in the office for 10-12 hours a day. go home, eat then sleep. then i wake up at 6am to go to work. stay in the office for 10-12 hours a day. go home, eat then sleep. this is what i do.

i try to move on, i try to forget, i try to just move... with no emotions, just going through everyday. i try...

and yet when i am caught with a moment and i allow myself to feel... to think... to reflect... to remember.... its overwhelming --- for now i am afraid to face any emotions.

for now, i prefer to be one of the ants marching....

for now, i prefer life being a blur....

allow me this.