merry christmas!

this year is quite different from the ones that passed. we will be missing our loved ones --- my lolo and my papa. but as we celebrate christmas tonight our family reminds me so much of the kind of love that the Lord is giving His children.

my brother and I amidst the sad times has a family that loves and brings happiness to us.... to the rest of you who feels alone and depressed --- put your heads above the water, try to look, feel the breeze, smell the sweet scent of love...

Merry Christmas everyone! May the Lord God bless you!

christmas rush

bustling streets with cars...

late night hours in crowded malls...

bright lights, greens, reds... its the christmas rush.

busy busy busy...

unending wedding invititations, parties right and left

late nights in the office

deadlines that could not be met

happy songs

loud voices

clear fresh air

'tis the season

a blur of events...

i could not stop

debts pile up

emotions go hay wire

outpouring of money for meaningless gift-giving

i drown myself with work to cover for the emptiness

christmas rush ----

an overflowing rush of meaninglessness.

i am a mere observer looking through a glass ball of pretense.

dispensing tears

the sadness is still in my heart but by the grace of God i can feel His warm hug, constant companionship and a whisper of love as i live through the day

thank you Lord for always giving me a kiss good morning and whispering to me that all is well....

please tell papa i love him....

surviving everyday

... its getting harder everyday, more melancholy for each passing hour. i did not think that i would feel the deep sadness that i am feeling right now. i guess i miss papa.... i miss the what if's and the should have beens....